This is story about a girl who was sexually abused at the age of 13. Her life would never again be the same.
Will she overcome the past to be happy in the future? Or will her her past continue to ruin the future? She continually tries to take 2 steps forward but somehow ends up falling back 4 times more.
My Past Is Forever Haunting Me
There was a young girl who was sexually abused at the age of 13. This abuse continued for about 3 years. Every night the stepfather would come into the little girls room when everyone else was asleep and fondle her in the areas of her breast and vagina He would also make her preform sexual acts on his body as well involving his penis. When she refused he would shove her head done and she would gag or vomit. The young girl would quietly cry herself to sleep every night.She felt very uncomfortable and knew that it was not the right thing to be doing but remember she was only 13 and scared to death of her stepfather. He told the little girl that it was ok, a secret, and not to tell because no one would believe you anyway". The little girl was afraid to tell anyone because her stepfather swore that he would kill her mother and little brother. Until one day she had gathered up enough courage built up from anger and she told her mother about the abuse. Her mother did not believe her so she was forced to run away. She just couldn't take it anymore. She ran to her next door neighbors house and told her of the abuse. The neighbor quickly alerted the police.
The police came and arrested the stepfather and held him without bond until the court date a few weeks later. The little girl was asked to testify. She was so nervous but she did it. She testified on video tape and they played it at the hearing because she was too afraid to face him. Her mother quickly denied the allegations and the charges against him were immediately dropped. The mother had the audacity to suggest to the authorities that the little girl was jealous of their relationship and made up the story to get even with her. The little girls father was not around and this new man had taken his place. The little girl was hurt so she created this fictional story of abuse to have the stepfather removed from the home. Can you believe that they let him go? What if he hurt someone else? How unfair to the little girl. She was not going to sit by and watch this happen, so she moved decided to leave permanently.
The little girl then moved in with a favorite married cousin, she knew that she would be safe there. Things were finally looking up for the little girl.The little girl was finally happy and felt safer than she ever had before. The little girl and her cousin had always be close as a matter of fact this particular cousin that she had recently moved in with had always been her favorite until one day.
The little girl became very upset and finally felt strong enough to deal with what had previously happen with the stepfather. She began to pour out her heart to the cousin, she listened intensely and and firmly embraced her as to console her for the time being. Then she began to slowly lay the little girl down and proceeded to take off her clothes. She began to caress the little girls naked body and kiss her all over, before the little girl even knew what happened her cousin had just finished making love to her. The little girl just sat there starring at her cousin in a confused but helpless state. She didn't really understand what had just happened. All she knew was that her cousin loved her very much and she just assumed not to even talk about it. The little girl continued to live with the cousin and find a job because she had no where else to go and no one else to turn to. The love making continued daily whenever the husband and children were not around. The little girl began to develop feelings for the cousin. One night the husband and the cousin were having sex and the little girl could hear it through the walls it was very intense. The young girl began to get sick and she ran into the bathroom where she began to vomit profusely. The cousin quickly ran to see the young girl was ok.The young girl immediately felt better because the cousin had stopped having sex with the husband. The young girl had now realized that she was madly and deeply in love with her cousin. This was not supposed to happen she thought to herself as she packed up all of her belongings and took them to work with her. She was determined to find another place to stay that night. She was definitely not going back to her cousins house.
At work she continued on as though nothing was wrong, until a co-worker found her crying in the employee lounge. He asked "what's wrong"? and she said "nothing". Then she began to tell him about how her stepfather had sexually abused her and now her favorite cousin who she thought she could trust molested her. She was totally confused. She began to tell him that she didn't know if she liked men or women or both. She was confused about her sexual orientation. He felt so sorry for the young girl that he said that she could come home with him, his wife and their daughter. He assured the young girl that she would be safe there until she could figure out her next move.The young girl was a little hesitant but had not choice, she wasn't about to go back to her cousins house.
So after work they picked up his daughter from the babysitter and headed home. They arrived at his house and to her surprise the wife was not home. She began to have a few doubts but didn't care because she was now safe. Her co-worker began to cook dinner, listen to music, and opened up a bottle of wine. They soon ate dinner and he put his daughter to bed. Shortly after that they began to talk and listen to relaxing music The young girl decided that she had enough to drink and was feeling a little tipsy, so she prepared for bed. She said "good night" and proceeded to bed. Early in the morning the phone rang and it had awoken the young girl, it was his wife. She had been called away on an emergency business trip and she would not be home until next weekend. A few minutes later the young girl heard her bedroom door open and it was her co-worker. She sat up and they began talking and one thing lead to another and they ended up having sex. The next morning it was back to work as usual like nothing had ever happened. Once work was over they picked up his daughter from the babysitter, had dinner and put her to bed. The affair lasted for about 1 week and the young girl was falling for her co-worker. A week later the wife arrived home and the young girl was finally able to meet her. The young girl thought that she was really nice and immediately began to feel bad for sleeping with her husband. Later that night the co-worker told the young girl not to tell what had happened between them because it would ruin their marriage. The young girl agreed. The young girl and the wife became really good friends over the next several months and they had been spending a lot of time getting to know each other. When out of the clear blue sky the wife asked the young girl if she would join her in a 3 way with her husband. The young girl quickly responded no. Upon arriving back at the house the young girl asked the husband what she should do about what she was just asked and the husband that she should do it.
He said just act like we have never been together before and that it was your first time. So she did it and she liked it. Now she was more confused than ever. Here stepfather, her cousin, now a friend and his wife. The young girl began to think what next?
The young girl reached out to her mom after almost 3 years. She needed help. She didn't tell her what was going on but she apologized for all of the trouble that she had caused between her and her husband. The mother then informed her that they had gotten a divorce and welcome the young girl back home with open arms. The young girl quickly packed up her things and got on the next bus moving. Finally, she arrived back at home. She had missed her mom so much. She told her about the situation about the co-worker and made it seem like they forced her into having sex. She never told her mom about her cousin because she didn't want the move to think less of her.
She was satisfied with being home and feeling secure.
Over the next few years the young girl had quickly blossomed into an young lady. She became very sexually active with multiple partners. She slept with two men at a time, two women at a time and participated in many orgies. The young lady loved sex. She enjoyed bringing pleasure to men and women by going down on them and allowing them to release themselves in her mouth. She began to smoke and drink and do ecstasy.She was spiraling out of control. She began to get into many abusive relationships and was severely beaten on more than one occasion. She was even hospitalized with substantial injuries. This went on for years to come.
The young lady soon realized that it was time to settle down when she had two children out of wedlock and didn't know who either of the fathers of her children were. She began to get her life back on track. She started going to church and working two jobs to provide for her ready made family. Things were slowly coming together for her and her children. A year or two later she felt comfortable enough to start dating again.She met a wonderful man. The begin to have relations and she couldn't be happier. She thought this might finally be the one. She was happier than she had ever been before. They were so compatible mentally, physically, spiritually, and sexually in the beginning of their relationship. Then something went terrible wrong, during a night of intercourse he asked her to go down on him and she went off the deep end. Things have never been the same since then. She no longer wants to have sex with him and if she does she wants to get it over as fast as she can. She started to feel like it was a chore and something that she had to do, it was no longer romantic, spontaneous or fun. What happened to her, she was so sexually active and so full of life and now she is down and depressed?
Why the sudden change in her sexual behavior? She once had a healthy sex drive and now she could care less. She used to love going down on males and females and now the very thought of that act disgusts her. He continues to pressure for sex and she could care less. It doesn't matter to her if they do it again ever or not. She is happy and loves him no matter what. He wants it all the time and is upset when he doesn't get it. What happened to that once vibrant young lady? After everything that she had been through her past had came back to haunt her. Never again would she be happy, in love, or sexually involved ever again.
Just ask yourself this question, why do you think she changed? What went wrong?